A broken One !!!

Still awake.... What makes me do that...am I overexcited about life...no!! Am I in love....no !! Am I waiting for a call ...no!! Am I chatting ...no!! What ....here I got it...I'm not happy :(

But I wonder the reason of it.... Is it that I was left alone...ammm my best buddy ditched ?? Only this could be the reason ??? ...well at times only a silly reason can make u feel like uhh...not even worth sharing... U get upset of no reason without even analysing what made u fall unto it...and the time you make up a mind to analyse the same ...u can't even find a single reason of getting upset...wohhh waooo damn crazy and stupid thought it was but then that's true and true in all the senses.

 I'm so surprised with the skill a human being can possess... I mean without even saying the real cause of it the whole story could be naratted and the only one who has ever fallen into the situation would get it in a while...

Hmm I'm also bad at narattions ...ahh I was a good narattor anyways..it feels like giving explanations or what..it's a broken narattion, a broken story which could not be naratted nor could be written nor understood...I wonder who will ?? I guess a patient one or a phycologist...funny!!


It's a broken one!!! And will always be ......................,................

A Girl's Wish

The world says that it is really impossible to read a girl's mind. Uhh well it's true. Coz the state of mind through which a girl has to go through on daily basis is not so simple to be understood  by the common people. Yeah that's true. That's the reality. The time I must be thinking of my family and getting lost into it, my friend might be thinking that I am not interested to talk or might end up saying......Ooooo Boyfrienddd hmmmm. Oh Come On, I mean who really cares about what the world thinks of me or what interpretations they are making, I am Lostttt. I am lost in my own world of dreams and desires. 

Yes that's me and that's how a girl is. Just happy with her life and with the people whom she loves in her life. I might ask for n number of gifts , I might ask for n number of dresses, I might ask for a good life, some luxuries, some amusements or may be nothing. What all a girl want is not those materialistic things but true love in all those things she gets from her loved ones. Sometimes a hug, a kiss, a soft touch, a sweet voice, a cute smile, caring eyes and a shoulder where she can put her head and cry is enough. A hand which she can hold and hold for life is enough for her satisfaction. She doesn't want a big bouquet of red roses, sometimes a single rose filled with love is enough.

I.......I am a daughter, a sister, a true friend, and of all a true lover. Yes love connects me.. Love connects me and make me a good daughter , love keeps me inspired and become a supportive sister, love motivates me to become a true and loyal friend, no matter how many betrayals I had to face. no matter who left me , I am glad to say, I never left anyone. Love satisfies me in all the ways and that's what a girl wants in her life,  "Satisfaction". Satisfaction of love, satisfaction of joy, satisfaction of peace, satisfaction of having a perfect family, a loyal friend , a caring lover and a good life.:)

Are We Paying Off By Being Women

Previously it was Delhi and now it's Mumbai. Reading Times of Indian on my way to Office is always a good start of my job but that day I was upset when I read another brutal rape case. This must not be my condition but all the sensible citizens of our country would have been in the same situation. But this is not the first case and of course will not be the last one. I mean what is actually going on in the mindset of people. The more media tells us about the stories of gang rape the more number of stories again becomes a part of the next day's news headlines and one more was a police constable was allegedly gang raped. And the news doesn't stop over here,  who is unaware of That Saint's Case which is on air these days.Can any one tell me is it only fake.. Well more than the rape case I am surprised on his statement!! Please don't justify his statement that Nirbhaya should have pleaded in front of those rapists and should have said bhaiya to them. Can that saint please tell me one point that was he the victim of the case and had he seen Nirbhaya not asking them no leave her or pleading for her life? Who knows what she has gone through or what that 23 year old journalist must have gone through and what is in the mind of that 5 year old girl who was raped by her neighbour and what that widow must be facing who was raped by decoits and how much humiliation the family has to face,  what each and every girl of the country must be thinking after listing scores of cases of rapes and yet this is not over. Who knows who is next!!!

Please tell me when all this is gonna get over? Starting from female foeticide, to rapes to brutal behavior after marriage or throwing of acids if a girl says no to marriage, those murders just for greed, that humiliation in the society, that inhuman behaviour ................is it going to get over one day or we have to face the world like this. 

"Are we actually paying off by being women."

Ye Meerut wali ladki bi na...................By God !!!!

I know I might be getting too emotional but that's how I am while being in any relationship, be it in love or in friendship. And this time it's FRIENDSHIP!!! Oh Yes I can write a full novel on how it just started with just a formal gesture... Oh how could I forget "YOU ARE MY SENIOR"............!!!

It then moved towards sharing our family lives shortly, then office stuffs, then friends and yesssss none other then boysssss :p. I still remember , you just had a handful of stuffs regarding boys and I ?????? Well lets move further. Sharing food, sharing things about each other's lifestyle, sharing thoughts, sharing our frustration, our grief, our happiness all that brought us so close that now it's even impossible to not talk to each other even for a single day. 

I love the way you just sit beside me and listen to all the foolish talks of mine. I love the way you appreciate me , my work ,my food and everything in me. I love the way u scold me for my kiddish yet illogical behaviour. It's just amazing to talk to u as if I'm talking to my elder sister. You make me feel so special and proud on myself "wo to mujhe bachpan se hi pata ha " but still your words make me live a more dedicated life ahead. 

I feel blessed when I share my thoughts with you and  you are always ready with the solution of my problems. It's the lifetime achievement for me that someone has literally started reading my eyes. You have accepted me the way I am ................good or bad.

You know what actually you make my day when you laugh at any of my jokes. I know some of them are literal bullshits and poor ones but you still manage to digest them and laugh at them. 

Now some gr8 dialogues after those senti ones:

I love you O dear Life !!!

It's strange or I guess prewritten how people come into our lives, how they become a part of our lives, how we start thinking our life with them and fear from thinking the life without them. It's strange..really strange but after some time we realise by ourselves that no one dies without anybody. Life just moves on. It really doesn't wait for anybody. You gotta eat, you gotta breathe, you gotta laugh, you gotta work and you gotta do all other such stuffs in your life which you were doing in the presence of that so called person. I really wonder...........does that made any difference....ahmm well I AM STILL ALIVE. I am alive coz I got a dream to fulfill. I am alive coz I gotta prove that I may crack but I will never break. At least not coz of any one who was not even worthy enough. Worthy enough of friendship or even more. 

You gotta embrace the life as it comes to you!!!

U Are My Support and I Am Your's !!!

It's been very few years since I have started understanding you and for you it was one of your responsibility to understand me, to be with me, to be my support and make me believe in myself. It's just coz of you I stand so confident today. You are my support, you are my belief, you are my faith. I know I am fine till your love , your care and your hand is on me...You are my ideal!!! 

Your dignity, your honesty, your way of watching life, your positive attitude, your faith on god and on your struggle and hard work....everything you do becomes a lesson for me. 

   

   Every morning I wake up and wait for you to come and make my day, 

                      and you always make sure that you do the same.

My day starts with you and ends up with you. The whole day I try to be the kind of girl you want me to be and at the end of the day , I ask to myself whether I have lived up to your expectations or not. 

I am happy that you rely on me, I feel proud to be your girl and always want to be. 

 Whenever you say that you are proud on me, my life becomes worthy enough.

The time when you sit beside me and share your feelings, the time when you say that I have become your shoulder, becomes the proudest moment of my life. You are my life, you are my strength. 
I wish the brightest sunshine comes into your life everyday. I wish I could be with you during each and every ups and downs of your life and both of us face the life as we have faced it till now.......Together!!!.


Happy Birthday Papa. I Wish I could get all the happiness of the world for you and I promise I will. :)

U must not be afraid of dreaming a little bigger Darling!!!

Dreams are not just to see at night and forget in the morning. Atleast for those who knows the value of time and money, it's not. No doubt some dreams are silly enough to even think about but if in any circumstances if you think it's achievable and will change your life positively then go for it. 


It has been aptly said that hard work never goes waste. So why should I fear from doing the same and getting late in the race of getting a job or settling fast. I wonder how does it matter even if I know what I am doing will lead me toward a big step, may be even much better than early earners.